Sunday, June 12, 2005
tonight gonna be a peaceful night.. tho nothing much has been changed..i feel much better after talking it out and cry out my heart.. i dun feel the stone in me somehow.. maybe the talking is good.. gonna be a good gal for this 3 years.. i'll wait patiently.. but somehow i still needs time to get over it.. won't be so soon i guess.. but in my heart one thing is for sure is that i'll wait for him.. nothing will change me.. for at least i know the ppl around me won't be able to.. for my heart has know the direction.. come to think about it..this is my 1st time like this...God really shows me alot of stuff... but wonder why God shows me all these till now only... maybe he has his own timing..
tonight is oso a night of bashing myself up.. realised i did alot of "unbehaved" stuff.. if not for sarah and sue.. i guess i won't think i need some bashing.. but now i really want to..
as for joel says i'm "innocent"..yah i know i am...but it's too slow to react to it already.. more bashings needed..
this itme God really let me learn alot of things.. may i use all these experiences to mould myself as well...
haing gastric now.. but no med.. leading prayer tml morning oso.. but like not prepared yet.. k lah i better go prepare and rest le...
Germaine blogged @ 2:53 AM