Saturday, May 07, 2005
had a good week today..not very hectic as well.. when work started a few days i was really tired and sian.. but luckily i've got thurs for me to rest well...plus the following week which is this week, there's a hol on mon.. it's was a great weekend.. went to beach with huiyu, deb, teresa, josh, edwin, joanne, min plus a 2 friends of teresa's. had a fun time together but the beach was like super aot of ppl. quite sian to see so many ppl but anyway we still had our fun..played volleyball..went into the sea etc.. was still quite fun lah..that mon makes some of us tanned and red..quite cool... oh and i got the chance to see how law's house looked like..cos that night i went for prayer meeting held at law's house. haha.. believe me k..law really has a photo that looks like the burglar with that macdonald man.. haha.. super funny sia..whenever i look at it i'll just laugh in my heart..haha...=p (sorry law..^-^) realised alot of blessings. like some nights when i was tired or like it's too late that kind, there'll be ppl around who have the car to send me home.. tho it's not convenient but ppl like eric and jasper who will send me back home..hee..very great to have these friends around in times of nights like those.. =)my work is great...nice ppl to mingle with..joke with.. it's like a group of ppl having the same frequency.. laugh at the same things.. began to like work already...but prob if they leave then the feeling of liking work will oso fade lahz..haha.. they are like the motivation...when super piissed with customer we'll like tell each other...or when we meet a super funny customer we'll oso like talk and laugh together.. hope this 1 month or so will stay as a good memory..=)got my NUS reply letter 2 days ago...it was unsuccessful lah..quite upset actually.. cos NUS doesn't wan me!! haiz..can't be school mateswith gina liao.. lol.. anyway quite depress la.. dissapointed as well.. it's like the days of school is getting further from me.. seems so hopeless.. just dun wanna start working for long term at such an age..it's too scary to accept anyway...-_-these few weeks haven't really get a happy weeks.. work is work...home is home..church is church... but the most unhappiest time i guess is when everyone in church wanna poke their fingers into my affairs that kind.. somehow i really feel that i'm happier at work than i'm in church on sat and sun... at least i won't feel pressurised when i'm with them.. the views of the church is suffocating me... maybe it's the spiritual aspect that they expect from me.. perhaps i'm not as spiritual as they tot i am. but my point is this and i stand firm with this : Regardless of who u are, guy or gal, where u are when i meet u, how i meet u, if we can clique and i'm comfortable with the company, i will make u my friend, or my close friend. yes u may think it's full of "me", and where's God in the picture? And i'll say: At the time i meet this friend, God has been in the picture, if not we won't meet at all. i don't want to be strangled by all your views, you can be disappointed with me, but i won't know how and what to react to it.. but to say maybe i need to change an environment of fellowshipping with the saints and with God. really feel stagnant at times. where is the place that i once grew in and experience God? is it lost in reality... or is it just lost in my heart...
Germaine blogged @ 2:29 PM
